SMILIES       BB-CODE       FORUM GUIDELINES       SITE DONATIONS       CONTACT ADM
General Forum
Start a New Topic 
Author
Comment
RDJ saved my life

So the other day, we had an assigement in school. An essay on 4 pages. Subject?
Writing about someone that has changed your life.
I chose RDJ (seriously who wouldn't?)and I would like you all to know why. Cause he saved my life.
This is not some sob story that I made up, it's the real deal, and I can't really find any other who would understand this better than you guys. Since we're all here on this awesome page, loving the same awesome actor, I hope you will understand better than anyone.
So, let's begin.

I've always been a trouble maker, doing drugs since I was probably around 12, fighting with the other girls in school.
Somehow I always been a talented student, always getting straight A's even when I been high as **** on some of the tests.
I think that I really always have been this messed up. Weird as a kid, I could be drawing for days without saying anything or playing the piano for 10 hours without any rest.
At the age of 6 I started acting, and it was when I was acting, that I felt like a real kid.
I still do acting, alot. I love it, and I can't live without it.
One more thing that made me feel less ****ed up, was watching RDJ's movies. My favorite is Chaplin, beacuse of that simple reason that I have grown up to that movie.
I almost knew every line by heart.
I used to watch after every time my mum beat me up, it became kind of a soothing act, and it made me feel less alone and and I little bit loved.
Sorry for beeing such a Harry (bad narrator, like in "Kiss Kiss Bang Bang) I promise I will get somewhere with all this crap.
Moving on.
As I said my mum used to beat the **** out of me from time to time, she even got reported to the police for child abuse.
She didn't care, and nothing really happened. She didn't stop anyway.
Don't really know why she did it, never got any explanation. But, on the other hand, is there ever?
After a while I got sick of the bruises and moved to live with my dad.
Living with him was hard (the man has an IQ of 148 and took drugs when he was young, combine that and you get a schizophrenic man, on the edge of a mental breakdown)and every day was a challenge to keep him calm and tell him that the neighbours didn't try to kill us.
Maybe you begin to understand why I did drugs so early in my life, maybe you don't.
The thing is that I was to afraid to face all of this, afraid of how bad I would feel.
I stoped doing drugs for a while, but being without them made me unfunctional.
I couldn't draw, couldn't play the piano, and I didn't feel like myself.
Now, we're getting to the end of this.
So, I used to have a lot of friends, but as time progressed, I lost them thanks to all the drugs.
My best friend, she tried so hard and so long to staywith me, but eventually, she couldn't handle it anymore. I don't blame her.
The only thing I had left was the theater, the acting classes.
The drug use got worse, I was always high, might been sober for a couple of hours like two times a month.
I couldn't continue going to the drama classes, my teacher wouldn't let me.
The drug use increased as I tried to forget everything, tried to push down all the bad feelings and memories.
One night, I couldn't sleep.
I started to think about my life.
I felt so... Empty. Like the drugs were everything I had.
And without them, I was nothing. Like they were apart of me. Stop taking them would make me less talented, less everything. But if I continued with it, I would be alone forever. I mean, who can have the strength to put up with someone who always gonna chose the drugs over them?
And I sat there in the dark. And I didn't see any other way out of it. So I thought; "**** it, the world would be better of without me."
And I started to prepere to commit suicide.
My dealer used to give me Xanax (being one of teh drugs that I used) and I knew that if I O.D. on them, I wouldn't feel a thing just... fall asleep and never wake up again.
The decision felt nice. It felt good. And I finally felt some peace in my body.
So I sat there, in the dark, with 20 pills in my hand, ready to do it. It felt like I was holding relief in my hand. It felt so good that everything would be over in an hour.
Somehow, I started to think about RDJ. And then Chaplin. So I turned it on, and when it was over I watched it again.
When I watched it for the fifth time, I cried.
I flushed the pills down, called the suicied hotline, and was commited to psychiatric care for 3 weeks. After 6 month of rehab, I'm finally clean.
I moved away from my mum, and live by myself. I started acting again, I go in a acting school aswell and I've been in some small movies already.

If it hadn't been for RDJ I woudn't be alive today, and I probably wouldn't have been putting up with everything for so long.
I hate it that he probably never will know what he did for me, that he really saved me that night, and my entire life. That he was the one for me when my mum beat me up.
It's unfair. So ******* unfair, that he might never know it.

Well, thank you guys for reading. Hope I'll meet you somewhere, some day. LOVE <3

Age (opt) 17

Re: RDJ saved my life

Hi Jossie,

I think that Robert would be really happy if he knew your story! He has such a big heart, he would be really touched. Maybe you should try to send it to him.

I'm glad that your life is better now and wish you a lot of strenght.

We all know that RDJ is the best medicine!

Country Hungary

Age (opt) 36

Re: RDJ saved my life

Drop him a line and let him know, Jossie. You're pretty gutsy and he'd ne proud to know about your survivor's heart. I have a friend with her own survivor story, who owes her life to Mr. Downey also. He's touched a lot of people.

Country United States

Re: RDJ saved my life

Thank you guys for the kind words <3

Age (opt) 17

Re: RDJ saved my life

Jossie
Thank you guys for the kind words <3
Jossie, I am glad that you are still alive and that you are here. Welcome to the board!

Country USA

Re: RDJ saved my life

Your story brought tears to my eyes! You should definitely send this in a letter to Mr. Downey. I think he needs to know how he has had an impact on your life. I'm sure there is a lot in your story that he can relate to from his own personal experience.

I'm so glad you shared this with us. Stay strong. And good luck with your acting career!

Country South Carolina, USA

Age (opt) 34

Re: RDJ saved my life

Jossie, your story broke and touched my heart at the same time. I am so proud of you for your journey to recovery and so grateful that you are here to share your survivor story. You're a good person, a strong person and know that there are people here that care about you. From this day on, your life is be blessed
and wonderful things are already happening for you.

Country Boston/USA

Age (opt) Robert's minus 1

Re: RDJ saved my life

Oh you guys, you seriously make me cry. You're so understanding and supportive, THANK YOU! I knew this was the right place to tell my story and share, cause you guys really gets it and being so nice to me (even without knowing me) it's such a loving gesture that it makes me really touched.
Thank you so much for all the kind words, love to every single one of you <3

Age (opt) 17

Re: RDJ saved my life

Jossie, thank you so much for sharing your story with us. I'm so glad you didn't take that final step and I'm so glad you are still here. Much love and strength to you.

Country Australia

Re: RDJ saved my life

Jossie you really touched my heart, I'm really happy you're still here. I also think that you should tell your story in a letter to Robert, I'm sure he would be touched if he read it. Thanks for sharing your story with us and I hope you will be happy and you will have all the things that you deserve. My best wishes for you.

P.D. Sorry for my bad English, but I needed say to you some words.

Country Barcelona (Spain)

Age (opt) 30

Re: RDJ saved my life

Thank you so much guys!So, I've written the letter now... Should I send it? What do you think? I dont want to appear like a creeper or some sort of freak...

Age (opt) 17

Re: RDJ saved my life

By all means send it. But remember it may be a while before he receives it. All his correspondence has to be screened.

Country United States

Re: RDJ saved my life

Hi Jossie

I’m really sad about your childhood, you touched my heart. But I’m glad that you’re still with us on this planet. As I was sick, Roberts movies helped me a lot and when I am sad and depressed I hear his version of “Smile” and read his interviews. He has lived so much life and has such wise words for everybody who is interested in a deeper meaning of life. From him, I have learnt so much about life, how to live, how to be grateful and how precious life is. I don’t know you but I think you’re a lovely person, so please stay strong. Sorry my English isn’t very well and to express feelings in a foreign language is very difficult. But I hope you understand me.

PS: And yes, you should send the letter to Robert, perhaps he read it in one of his lonely moments.

“I believe in karma. When someone does something wrong, you don’t have to get them back. Everything right will return the favor for you.” Robert Downey Jr.

Country Switzerland

Age (opt) 41